as i grow older, i think i become more critical. more abusive. more stubborn. more... negative.
i hardly see that happy twinkle in my eye, without that dreadful sign of weariness.
i hardly feel genuinely happy anymore, without dreading the next bad thing to come.
it's a funny feeling i am feeling right now.
i just don't know what to describe.
am i just being an idiot?
or maybe i am just overly sensitive, indecisive that lead to this mental fatigue?
or maybe this emotion fatigue?
where i don't feel the spirit or the energy to go on anymore...
growing hard is hard... but growing up happily is even harder...